.:Vent:. River of Blood and Tears

I just feel like I push everyone away from me...my friends...everyone...I make them mad and it seems like our relationship just went down the meter by 100...I know I do this a lot, and today, one of my friends made me realize this...

Eugene (a friend of mine) and I wanted to mess with Jon and Lilly (my other friends) like they did with us and we were seriously going to do. I told him to wait until I don't have class with them because I can never keep a straight face. BUT before we could ever start it, Jon got mad at us because he wanted to know what we were up to but we wouldn't tell him so he got mad. And that's about the time I realized that I just push my friends away...he's still mad and I'm sad...

I don't know if I've ever been mean to any of you, and if I have, i am so so SO sorry DX I hate it...I've always pushed ppl away, and I don't even realize it...and I'm ashamed and hate myself for it...

I'm sorry to bother you all with this...on the bright side, at least I can still draw wolves X3 I was wondering if I would be able to draw wolves good because I've only been drawing cats and I love my style of my kitties. I hope you all have a wonderful day~

Art and Luna (c) Me